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@hussyknee / hussyknee.tumblr.com

Queer disabled lady from South Asia. Social Anarchist. Decolonize or die. Batfamily sideblog here. I swear a lot, follow at own risk IF you are over 14. DNI: suicide baiters, antis/fandom police, oppression olympians, radfems, zionists, tankies, blue-no-matter-who liberals.
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Some tinhat in the Will Darling Adventures tag said that it's "obviously JohnLock fanfiction rewritten", which is the most horrible thing anybody could have ever said about KJ Charles, a historical romance novellist who thinks the entire aristocracy should be beheaded and writes characters of colour like they're just people. The only JohnLock resemblance I can see is the fact that Kim's a tall, self-flagellating idiot who looks a bit like a worried greyhound and Will an endearingly decent, unbelievably obstinate, terrifyingly pragmatic ex-army officer with a craving for homicidal violence like a nicotine habir. But, very crucially, both these characters are openly and deeply concerned about other people, don't treat their loved ones like shit, and generally act like normal, likeable human beings instead of egotistical self-absorbed shitstains. They're also, crucially, far younger and better looking.

Unfortunately, now that it's in my head I cannot unsee it because I am a pathetically suggestible person. Kim is easier not to cast as Bendydick Cabbagepatch because he's really not anything like Sherlock and instead so quite clearly evocative of a lissom 1920s silent film star. Will, otoh, being the POV character, doesn't give any clear description of himself at all except for being the absolute personification of mulish just-getting-on-with-it-ness, which regrettably leaves my mind too much room to conjure that racist piece of damp Hobbit bread whose only facial expression is of Some Guy stuck in the permanent realization that the crosswalk light isn't working. It's no good to reason that Will must be good-looking enough to score a hottie like Kim, which would necessarily rule out Freeman at every stage of his life. Or that Will is fundamentally not a secret asshole nor impressed by assholes and would in fact go out of his way to give a smug superior smartypants clotpole like Sherlock a wedgie out of a sense of social obligation.

It is a mistake to scroll Tumblr tags before reading things. There's too many white queers shipping middle-aged moldy white cis het toast everywhere.

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when i was a kid i wanted to be a famous youtuber like dan and phil so that people would gay ship me with my irl best friend and we would be sooo weirded out by it and laugh and make videos joking about it but secretly it would make her realize her repressed gay crush on me and i'd help her through her gay crisis and then we would have a sickeningly sweet sappy romance and read fanfiction about ourselves together... anyways just found out she's married to a guy in the mafia now so i probably don't have a chance

this post keeps breaching containment so IMPORTANT CONTEXT. it is HER living out the wattpad fantasy because she got shotgun married and is currently very happy with her honestly very attractive mafia husband. she was neo riche BUT deeply hated by her mother beforehand. it was kind of an arranged marriage situation to begin with so it’s ALMOST like being sold to the mafia if u squint at it from really far away. she also has blonde hair blue eyes and a penchant for messy buns. i on the other hand did infact confess my love to her at age 14 in a public pool and she did subsequently accuse me of faking being bisexual for instagram likes because of it. also i am a man now. she is unaware of this due to the fact that she hates me because she thinks i shit talk her behind her back. which i do. anyways. point is the house always wins. she won. she has the mafioso boyfriend and has happily escaped her abusive mother and now owns three teslas and several properties in puerto rico. i am not the protagonist of this story.

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Two kinds of people in the world.

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At the gate for my flight home from visiting friends and there's a woman here with a service Shiba Inu. No pics because he has a Do Not Disturb vest and taking pics of strangers is illegal but I need to stress how ON DUTY this animal is. Ears up. Eyes doing Lazer scans of everything. Examining everyone who passes within 10ft like a security guard. Ass planted on her feet. I have never seen a dog with such intense chivalric guardian energy before. He has tiny eyebrows and they are FURROWED with concentration.

Man behind me having unhinged phone conversation. There is an internationally famous dairy in the area I was visiting and he was commissioned by the lady on the other end of the phone to collect specific cheeses from there. The lady is very high strung about the type and condition of the cheese.

The man does not know from cheese. The man "ain't never seen no cheese but orange before" and "I showed ya list to the cheese lady so if it's wrong it's her fault ok?"

I am 80% sure she sent him there for a really specific bleu cheese, 40% sure he does not have the very specific bleu cheese, and 100% sure he's done with her shit.

Our flight is delayed.

He does not have the cheeses in a cooler, just a regular backpack.

I need to emphasize that there is no cooler bag in the backpack. He has Jansport backpack that is jam-packed with cheeses. There is apparently $405 dollars worth of cheeses in that backpack, which I know because he has been trying to get the lady to venmo him the expense, which she has failed to do. It is unclear whether his relation to the lady is romantic, familial or what, but I'm leaning towards "what".

Two more people have joined us. One is a very elegant man with a perfect manicure in a tailored business suit, the other is a neon-haired person of indeterminate gender wearing a fox kirigumi. The Shiba Inu has been staring at the latter for three minutes now.

Uh oh.

Cheese man has been demanding payment because apparently he went like six hours out of his way and paid with his own money and between the cheese and price of gas, he is pretty sure he does not have enough money in his account for an Uber home.

The lady is FLABBERGASTED that he is demanding payment at all, as she was under the impression he was doing this for her out of the goodness of his heart.

He's not having it. He's insisting she told him she would pay him back- he would have gotten her maybe one cheese somewhere closer to his business in the area out of love, but he went out of his way because she agreed to pay him costs+ extra to cover it.

HE RECORDED THE CONVERSATION IN WHICH SHE PROMISED TO PAY FOR THE CHEESE, SHE'S THAT MUCH OF A FLAKE.

I am about to offer this man cash for some of these cheeses because our flight is now more delayed.

"YOU ALWAYS DO THIS! YOU ALWAYS DO THIS AND I FALL FOR IT EVERY TIME! NO! NO! FUCK YOU! IF YOU'RE NOT GONNA PAY ME, YOU DON'T GET FANCY CHEESE."

"OR ELSE WHAT?"

"I'm gonna-? THE BABY SHOWER? MONICA CAN'T EVEN HAVE THIS CHEESE SHE'S PREGNANT!"

"The cheese lady asked if it was for someone because the mushrooms or whatever in the cheese are dangerous for the baby or something?? You wanna poison Monica?"

"WHY WOULD I LIE ABOUT THAT?"

"YEAH OF COURSE I GOT THE CHEESE, THATS WHY I DON'T GOT MONEY FOR UBER!"

"YEAH, GO TELL! GO TELL MOMMA I STOPPED YOUR STUPID ASS FROM KILLING MONICA OR THE BABY! FUCK!"

*hangs up phone*

*head in hands, borderline hyperventilating*

The man in the three piece suit is in the chair next to him. He waits a moment, then reaches into his carryon and pulls out an entire bottle of wine with the TSA pre check sticker on it, and taps cheese guy on the shoulder.

"If your friend doesn't want it, would you be amenable to having it right now?"

Naturally, I have volunteered my box of wheat thins and offered to buy one of the harder cheeses which should be fine if it makes it home.

Meanwhile, Kirigumi has noticed that the Shiba Inu is staring at her and is correctly intimidated.

1. This is some fucking great Camembert. I have compensated cheese guy accordingly. So have like six other people. He's recouped like half his losses.

2. Cheese guy is crying a little about the cash and opening up about his problems. The cheese lady is his younger sister. Suit guy is being very generous with his Pinot Blanc. We are having a picnic/improv family therapy session.

3. This is apparently the latest in a long string of his sister asking for something and then flaking when he asks to be paid back. Started with paying him back only some of what he was owed, then claiming something she paid for him was of equal value when it was not, then recently telling him his memory is wrong and he said it was a gift or that he'd do it for free.

"Yeah, the specific thing of trying to convince you your memory is unreliable is called gaslighting and it's really fucked up." I say

"yeeeeah. The other stuff I forgave because she's never really had a good job so she can't pay me back all the time but at least she was making an effort y'know? But that was. That was over the line."

"If you haven't already, check on the rest of your family's finances. My brother started trying to gaslight everyone when he started stealing from our parents." Says Pinot Blanc.

4. Shiba Inu Lady has purchased a cheddar. Apparently, the dog's name is Donut, and he's her service dog because she's severely visually impaired.

"Oh, he's a guide dog?" Asks cheese guy.

"oh, no." She laughs. "He's too short, and the way my eyes are, it's easier for me to navigate with a cane. No, the problem I have is that some morally impaired people see the cane and think they can get away with stealing my bag or assaulting me because I wouldn't be able to give a description- which is wrong, but rather than deal with that I got Donut, and he helps me by howling at anyone who gets in my personal space and biting anyone who grabs me!"

"Uh." Says Kirigumi. "He's been staring at me do I need to back up or..?"

"Ohdear! No, no- He wasn't looking at you! He loves cheese but he knows he's not supposed to beg so he decided the way to deal with something he wants but can't have is to stare in the other direction."

"OKAY!" Says Kirigumi. "I'm wearing fox pajamas and thought like. He thought I was another dog or something."

"No, no- he doesn't care about dogs, and you get a warning before he goes for the calves. Very helpful, when I was living in Italy!"

"Oh what part? I have family in Tuscany." Says Pinot.

"Does he want a cheese? There is still so much cheese." Says cheese guy.

Plane may be arriving. I am paying for in flight WiFi to keep y'all updated.

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vitruvian23

And so is born an adventuring party, or perhaps a heist crew...

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plaguedocboi

Incorrect sayings that I use so often I’ve almost forgotten that they’re not the originals:

  • I have bigger fish to fight
  • We’ll burn that bridge when we get to it
  • You can lead a horse to water, but if you drown it you have to walk home
  • Opening a can of whales
  • You made your bed, now shit in it
  • Combining the latter two into the phrase “you opened this can of whales, now lie in it”
  • A bird in the hand is worth a gift horse in the mouth
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PSA: Please for the love of God stop using the word "cretin". It's a slur for people born with congenital hypothyroidism (CHT, that used to be called cretinism) that causes physical and intellectual disability.

I think it's unrealistic to expect a blanket moratorium on insults about intelligence, but words like "mong/mongoloid" (anti-Asian slur later applied to people with Down Syndrome), "spaz", "downie", "midget" and "cretin" refer to people born with specific developmental disorders. If you care enough not to use the "r–word", please steer clear of these as well.

never in my life or all of media have i heard it used this way, but maybe that's just where i live? i had to google cretinism to even know what you mean, but that being said, yeah, there are a ton of words like this that are used daily. "idiot" "moron" and "lunatic" being among them. likewise "queer" and "weird" have changed meanings over time too.

i rarely ever have a use for the word cretin, i don't mind giving it up, but yeah where is the line drawn? i remember when the r-word was a slur, but is cretin currently used as a slur somewhere?

The r-word is still a slur, and the fact that you don't know what cretinism means doesn't mean nobody else does. It was used in my school textbooks in South Asia, which are still influenced hugely by British colonialism. A lot of people didn't know "midget" was a slur either, to the point that John Mulaney used it repeatedly in his godawful stand up just because his producer told him not to use it. There's lots of slurs nobody had any idea were slurs, to the point that Beyonce apologizing for using the word "spaz" got immense pushback. Meanwhile, the first time I tweeted this, a mother of a girl with CHT thanked me because her daughter was triggered every time someone used it.

As for "where the line is" I pointed out clearly that slurs for specific conditions, historical or otherwise, should be off the table, rather than general ones that's lost their relevance like "idiot" and "moron". Even so, "imbecile" still toes the line because it was in wide use as the bottom-most rung of the intellectual disability hierarchy pronounced in 1927 by Henry Goddard. It was the last word to fall out of use with the introduction of "mental retardation" in the DSM-IV in 1994. Definitely not equivalent with the word "queer" which was actively reclaimed by the community during the AIDS crisis.

I'll admit that I don't have much to add, but I did want to point something else out, too. It's extremely hurtful to compare the struggles of any one marginalized group to another. Being queer isn't in any way comparable to being disabled, especially when you're both of those things. It's extremely harmful and alienating to do this to all disabled people, but especially queer disabled people who are so used to our voices being ignored by people we should have a community with.

I'm begging abled people to please stop comparing your struggles to those of the disabled. Just in general you should know that you shouldn't be comparing anyone's struggles against each other's. Please just let disabled people talk without having to weaponize someone else's against us.

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So I accidentally found Hind Khaudary's Tumblr blog that she'd made when she was 20 when I posted her IG username. Fairly sure it's her, the age lines up exactly. What are the odds?

It just hit me how young she is. Most of the famous reporters in Gaza like Motaz and Bisan are Gen Z, but I really thought Hind was about 30. But oh my god she was 20 in 2016. I was 29 then and 20y olds seemed like kids to me even then. It was so weird scrolling her blog, like stepping into someone's closed up childhood bedroom. She was just one of the depressed Tumblrina kids with no social life, haunting a website held together with safety pins, ductape and discourse. She had no idea she'd be living through one of the worst things a person can ever experience; that she would lose everything she took for granted— all her books and photos and plushies and hair clips and favourite cups and plates and everything— except for her life, her family, and the clothes on her back. She had no idea she'd become a superhero to millions of people; the kind that nobody would ever want to be. She was just a lonely kid not knowing where she fit in.

It's enough to make you feel like one of those pinballs in a lotto machine. Except it's the lottery to hell.

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rosegoldlips

ur personality is defined by ur favorite line in hallelujah

tag your favorite line of hallelujah

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bigscaryd

“tag your favorite line of hallelujah” scans to Hallelujah.

you tried to read the words as prose but noticed how its scansion goes and now you can’t unhear the tune, so screw ya recall the phrase you love the most then once again reblog this post and tag your fav’rite line of hallelujah

okay that’s it I hate you all. like… fuckign done. i’ve hit the wall.

…I’m calling the Tumblr Cops to come subdue you

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ericvilas

I hate the fact this fucking fits. I’m just about to call it quits. Now everything just sounds like hallelujah.

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amatalefay

You pick a phrase, you pick a rhyme, repeat the sound another time, Five iambs, then an extra beat will do ya. Another rhyme, a rising note - congratulations, you just wrote Another goddamn verse to Hallelujah.

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Twitter feels like an even split between pro-Palestine supporters and the most horrific kind of racists, Zionists and white supremacists. Tumblr is by comparison overwhelmingly in support of Palestine. And yet the level of dehumanization, isolation, Othering and casual racism on here is so much more unbearable and suffocating than Twitter could ever be.

Tumblr wants to be seen as the anti-racist good guys on the right side of history while reinforcing the racist white supremacist western-centric status quo. Black and brown people are given platform under strict conditions of what values can be challenged and how far white comfort can be pushed. It's on Twitter that we have our own communities, our own power of advocacy, and a collective drive to interrogate and dismantle structures of power.

It reinforces what I have known for a long time— Tumblr's hatred of Twitter and TikTok is based primarily on refusing to tolerate the reality of equal representation, leftist action and racial justice. A true diversity of power and perspectives is messy, chaotic, conflict-driven and upends the sense of stability and space that can only come with a homogeneity of racial demographic. The majority of disenfranchised people understands that power structures and bureaucracies are built on purpose to exclude them — the poor, the sex workers, the incarcerated, the ghettoised, the disabled, the colonized. We have to fight to be heard, and our reality and political investment cannot be separated from the minority trauma that informs them. True equality entails not having to funnel that trauma through behaviour and ethics that makes their expression more palatable or considering of others; it removes all respectability politics and allows us to behave with the same unpunished toxicity that is unleashed on us by white and western people. Conflict, cacophony and having to tolerate the untempered emotions and self-interest of all groups is the price of true diversity and honest dialogue. It also primarily empowers Black and brown people and disempowers whites. In contrast, the "Diversity, Equity and Inclusion" on predominantly white-driven and Western-oriented spaces is a simply a neoliberal farce that requires us to perform our own humanity and ask validation from whiteness. This is why you see only the worst aspects and negative effects of Twitter and TikTok and use them to reject the the platforms wholesale while creating a narrative of moral superiority around Tumblr's relatively low levels of conflict and glossing over the receding presence of Black and brown people in its userbase.

Race is not a layer of oppression. It's the fundamental bisection that creates the underclass on which the colonial capitalist world order is built. It's the caste hierarchy of humanity; who gets to be labourer and profiteer, the exploiter and exploited, the worker and producer, the consumer and consumed, the masses and the individual. The living bodies and embodied lives. The experience of every other marginalization is shaped by its waters. White women and queers will neither understand nor share in the oppression of women and QPoC from both diasporas and the Global South. Even further, every marginalization becomes a weapon against BIPOC in the hands of its white demographic. Black and brown people of those marginalized communities will always only be a token and shield for their white counterparts, while being the workhorses behind their struggles.

It doesn't matter how many times you post "Free Palestine" when we know its only the product of your preoccupation with your own personal moral landscape. Politics based on egoism will always be eclipsed by threats to your material reality. This is why a userbase that spent its entire existence grandstanding against Nazis now cannot see Zionists as Nazis and begs people to participate in a political establishment that has revealed itself to be a genocidal white supremacist regime in the clearest possible terms. Fascism against its own enfranchised is the end stage of an empire that has begun to collapse under the weight of its war-mongering and now resorts to eating itself to survive. No amount of moral distance between yourselves and its machinery of death, no amount of scapegoating the lives crushed underneath it, will stop the roofs you sheltered under falling on top of you. This the truth that the colonized, enslaved and indentured people that built your house have lived all along.

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PSA: Please for the love of God stop using the word "cretin". It's a slur for people born with congenital hypothyroidism (CHT, that used to be called cretinism) that causes physical and intellectual disability.

I think it's unrealistic to expect a blanket moratorium on insults about intelligence, but words like "mong/mongoloid" (anti-Asian slur later applied to people with Down Syndrome), "spaz", "downie", "midget" and "cretin" refer to people born with specific developmental disorders. If you care enough not to use the "r–word", please steer clear of these as well.

never in my life or all of media have i heard it used this way, but maybe that's just where i live? i had to google cretinism to even know what you mean, but that being said, yeah, there are a ton of words like this that are used daily. "idiot" "moron" and "lunatic" being among them. likewise "queer" and "weird" have changed meanings over time too.

i rarely ever have a use for the word cretin, i don't mind giving it up, but yeah where is the line drawn? i remember when the r-word was a slur, but is cretin currently used as a slur somewhere?

The r-word is still a slur, and the fact that you don't know what cretinism means doesn't mean nobody else does. It was used in my school textbooks in South Asia, which are still influenced hugely by British colonialism. A lot of people didn't know "midget" was a slur either, to the point that John Mulaney used it repeatedly in his godawful stand up just because his producer told him not to use it. There's lots of slurs nobody had any idea were slurs, to the point that Beyonce apologizing for using the word "spaz" got immense pushback. Meanwhile, the first time I tweeted this, a mother of a girl with CHT thanked me because her daughter was triggered every time someone used it.

As for "where the line is" I pointed out clearly that slurs for specific conditions, historical or otherwise, should be off the table, rather than general ones that's lost their relevance like "idiot" and "moron". Even so, "imbecile" still toes the line because it was in wide use as the bottom-most rung of the intellectual disability hierarchy pronounced in 1927 by Henry Goddard. It was the last word to fall out of use with the introduction of "mental retardation" in the DSM-IV in 1994. Definitely not equivalent with the word "queer" which was actively reclaimed by the community during the AIDS crisis.

I'll admit that I don't have much to add, but I did want to point something else out, too. It's extremely hurtful to compare the struggles of any one marginalized group to another. Being queer isn't in any way comparable to being disabled, especially when you're both of those things. It's extremely harmful and alienating to do this to all disabled people, but especially queer disabled people who are so used to our voices being ignored by people we should have a community with.

I'm begging abled people to please stop comparing your struggles to those of the disabled. Just in general you should know that you shouldn't be comparing anyone's struggles against each other's. Please just let disabled people talk without having to weaponize someone else's against us.

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dni if you support relationships between vampires and the vampire they sired. i am so serious, i dont care what your justification is, that is an unforgivable power imbalance. its almost as bad as vampire human relationships (and if you support that i hope you get a splinter in the heart)

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op what the fuck is your problem? more maggots in your brain than usual? go out into the real underworld and touch some graveyard dirt. i know at least 7 vampires who are in happy healthy relationships with the vampire who sired them. me included! this may shock you but we started dating when i was human and she was a vamp!

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i hate to tell you this but you're in a toxic relationship and i sincerely hope youre able to get out.

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HELLO???????

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i keep seeing people saying this shit and honestly i think it stems from the infantalization of humans. humans are capable of making decisions for themselves. do some vampires abuse their powers over humans? of course! but you cant assume that every single human vampire relationship (or sire and sired relationship for that matter) is some unhealthy power imbalance, especially when you dont even know them!!!

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i think op is forgetting that humans can be just as harmful to vampires as they can be to humans. dont tell me you completely just forgot about the existence of vampire slayers

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next thing you know op is gonna be saying that a hundred year age gap between fully fledged vampires is problematic

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it literally is. i dont care if you are a 1000 years old vampire, if your significant other is 100 years older than you they have more life experience than you. god you guys are stupid why dont you all step into a sunbeam

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hey guys i just went to ops account and their pinned post was about how they dont consider werewolves part of the monster community cuz theyre not undead. just block and move on it is NOT worth it

🐺vamplovingwolf Follow

isnt it funny how whenever theres some rancid discourse like this its always made by coffinscrews

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the worst thing ever is when you become completely obsessed with some phrase your friends invented in some jackbox game or other such thing to the point that it becomes ingrained into your brain forever because nobody will ever know what i’m talking about when i say “I DO fuck like a cab driver for a blunt”. like that’s just my cross to bear forever.

do you people know the type of hell you’re about to unleash on my vernacular

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