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Fuck this, I’m sad.
I’m sad because I want. this is not the waste of expectation but the ache of desire.
ironically, you probably think I’m frigid, toying with you, but I’m not
or at least, trying not to. It’s not in my nature to go out to hurt, to set it upon myself, I’m not that
subversive. Contrary to
popular belief (because culture shapes
people, places, things
perception of, being)
I’m not interested in (playing) games -
at least not like this.
Never like this.
this is a dull game.
this isn’t a game at all.
I just want
but it isn’t you;
I don’t know what or who but I know this
and that’s enough. More than, even:
confronted not with deficit but with mundane realism
R L C
