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Hey, I'm Jacie! I write and draw for JJBA and sometimes other series. PFP commissioned from @/NeptunianDraws (IG)! 20+ | she/they

INTRO & INFO

Hi! I’m Jacie, and I write fanfic and occasionally draw fanart! I enjoy writing for JoJo’s Bizarre Adventure, Jujutsu Kaisen, and I’ve started writing for Hunter x Hunter.

I am an adult, and I post suggestive/adult/NSFW pieces. Minors, do not interact.

Full requests: open!
Mini requests: open!
Asks: open!

(My username used to be La-Squadra-Esecutie, so if you see some old stuff with that name, that’s me.)

CURRENT PROJECTS

LISTS & LINKS

Masterlist of Masterlists here.

AO3 link here.

Carrd link here.

Proudest art pieces here.

<<Updated July 17th, 2022>>

Me getting up in the morning like 

Hittin’ the keyboard like

Friends comin’ online like

DID YOu SEE tHE THINGg MY GOD

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This is and always will be my favorite Tumblr post of all time.

ive found that partially treated mental illness can sometimes look to uninvolved onlookers like faked mental illness.

"someone who really has pOCD would be disgusted and horrified at their intrusive thoughts" or maybe i'm in therapy & am going by the books, being radically ambivalent to my intrusive thoughts instead of wasting energy mentally washing my paws of sin. i'm not going to perform my rock bottom for you for the sake of being believed.

"I won't perform my rock bottom for you for the sake of being believed" is going straight into my permanent storage holy shit

This goes for all types of disability actually. Sorry if you don't think I act like I'm in enough pain to be disabled by chronic pain. But I'm not going off my meds that help control it just so you can properly sympathize with me.

please remember you are writing fanfiction for fun. please remember you are writing fanfiction for fun. please remember you are writing fanfiction for fun. please remember you are writing fanfiction for fun. please remember you are writing fanfiction for fun. please remember you are writing fanfiction for fun. please remember you are writing fanfiction for fun. please remember you are writing fanfiction for fun

That's exactly what I've been repeating in my mind for the last few weeks... it's not even having any effect...

I think some people forget that some literature and some media is meant to be deeply uncomfortable and unsettling. It's meant to make you have a very visceral reaction to it. If you genuinely can't handle these stories then you are under no obligation to consume them but acting as if they have no purpose or as if people don't have a right to tell these stories, stories that often relate to the darkest or most disturbing parts of life, then you should do some introspection.

I’ve read some things that deal in sad/dark/actually depressing and disturbing subject matter. I’ve loved them and the points they make without endorsing the events portrayed.

It’s always disappointing to get online and see that the conversation is “X thing shouldn’t exist” on the grounds that it made somebody feel badly. It was meant to make you feel that way and it’s normal that it did - it’s okay that you stop reading it or don’t finish it but I am BEGGING you to consider why it made you uncomfortable and why the author felt the need (if the answer isn’t immediately obvious, as it can be). There isn’t shame in something putting you off so badly that you shelve it.

The sterilization of reality is a detriment to all who exist within it. To censor stories with painful themes is to erase the reality that such stories are based in some horrific truth and works to erase the reality that many people have endured.

This trend or whatever we want to call it has gotten so bad that I listened to an entire lecture from somebody about how awful a book was and how it shouldn’t exist at all, how the author was a terrible person for concocting it and how it hurt people. When I asked what the book was, this person not only could barely recall the name but HAD NEVER READ IT. I bought the book. I read the book. It accomplished its task beautifully and I found it to be a cathartic experience. I also understood how it could make people so uncomfortable and would never judge anybody for setting it down.

It’s okay not to like something and distance yourself from it. Remember that those rules apply only to you, though, because they speak only to your own psyche.

Periodic reminder that one of the many roles of fiction is microdosing on big scary feelings so you build resilience, empathy, understanding, and defense against the real thing.

Censoring works because they deal with taboo subject matter or make you uncomfortable is not a good reason to censor. Discomfort in fiction is important.

Also, shaming others for having an interest in such things doesn’t help at all. It’s fine if you don’t want to take part in fiction that makes you uncomfortable, but it’s not fine to tell others that they shouldn’t either.

I love fanfic authors. I read a fic once and the author said they had a friend who is a real nuclear physicist teach them all about this radioactive compound and how it reacts with different materials so that their fic could be accurate. It was smut.

no i don't want to use your ai assistant. no i don't want your ai search results. no i don't want your ai summary of reviews. no i don't want your ai feature in my social media search bar (???). no i don't want ai to do my work for me in adobe. no i don't want ai to write my paper. no i don't want ai to make my art. no i don't want ai to edit my pictures. no i don't want ai to learn my shopping habits. no i don't want ai to analyze my data. i don't want it i don't want it i don't want it i don't fucking want it i am going to go feral and eat my own teeth stop itttt

making fun of ppl with disorganized speech or trouble articulating themself or lots of typos or anything else isn't funny actually

calling someone stupid for using a wrong word in place of a similar word, saying someones typos are "homestuck speech," complaining about someone with an aac device "taking too long" to say something, making fun of someone stuttering or mumbling, none of it is funny at all

It’s really ableist. Like… if someone already has difficulties communicating, regardless of the why, maybe we, I dunno, SHOULDN’T actively make it even more of an issue? And I’m speaking from experience. I sometimes have difficulties communicating, and it’s fucking humiliating and infuriating when people make fun of my speech. Like I get it, I talk funny sometimes. But is it really necessary to point it out like that?

🇲🇽: Hola tonotos 🐈. Hiromi Higuruma me lleva derritiendo el cerebro por casi 2 semanas seguidas 🥴 y que mejor forma de quitármelo de la cabeza (o solidificarlo) que dibujándolo 👉😎👉. EJSJDOEJSISJJ este dibujo se convertirá en un separador para mis libros 🤓 ya que lo hize en un trozo de hoja cortado que no quise tirar 💀. Solo falta enmicarlo y a ponerlo en uso 🤠. Anyway nada me hace más felíz que el abogado que se baña con ropa. Byeee 🐈.

🇺🇲: Hello bumdabsses 🐈. Hiromi Higumura has been rotting my brain for almost two weeks straight 🥴 and what better way of getting him out of my head (or locking him in) than by drawing him 👉😎👉. EJDJSJJDJSJSJS this drawing will be turned into a bookmark for my books 🤓 because I made it on a cut out of a sheet of paper that I didn't want to throw out 💀. Now I just have to laminate it and start using it 🤠. Anyway, nothing makes me happier than the lawyer who bathes with clothes on. Byeee 🐈.

Lookit my friend’s bookmark!!

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